December 2009
EVERYONE ALWAYS LEAVES
Half of the compliments I give out are fake. Don’t flatter yourself.
I’ve been a shitty friend, I’ve acted like I couldn’t care less. Too bad that’s not how I really am. I came off too strong, I’ve put on this giant mask and I’m tired of wearing it. Lately, I feel like I’ve distanced myself from every single one of you and I’m through with it. I do care, I do worry about you guys all the time. You mean the world to me...
12952.) I don’t know why I can’t get over you. It’s been so long already. Sometimes I wonder if you still like me; even a little. 12895.) I know that you’ll see, someday, I can’t live without you.
13553.) My fear of rejection is whats keeping me from telling you how I really feel. I’m scared I might never know what could’ve been.
If she loves you, if she really loves you, you’ll know it. If you can wake up to her staring at you and it’s not even mildly creepy, if you catch her smelling the shoulder of the hooded sweatshirt you lent her for an autumn walk at the beach, if she makes you a pancake in the shape of a shark, if she calls you drunkenly at four in the morning “to talk”, if she laughs at your jokes when they’re...
Do you ever miss something so much and just wish you could get it back? You try fixing everything else and everybody else just to make yourself a little more satisfied? Do you ever stop to wonder why you’re killing yourself trying to save everybody else… what about you? What about you’re happiness? Does it ever occur to you that you should stop trying to save everyone else and...
You can't tell me you don't remember those...
